xox

2012-01-27T19:52:00.004+08:00

I don't know since when did I never liked any single day of the week. Everyday, I have something to worry about tomorrow. I don't find joy in the things I do.

In fact I think I rant pretty a lot O.O

But in the end of the day, I still stuck my ass up and do the best out of it. Even if it takes every ounce of my very limited energy left. Cause I need to. Need to hold on to the thought that I did something good everyday. Of course I still keep a little time to do the things I love ;)

I had a so-called-resolution. I wanted to try new things this year. Things that involves nature. Activities that involves sweat and using loads and loads of energy. After all, it might be the last year of mankind. MIGHT BE. Better take a good look at the nature before its all gone. MIGHT BE GONE. But it all comes down to one great excuse for not being able to do so, NO TIME. I don't have enough motivation to make time for it, or maybe I really have no time :/

p/s ; I miss my cousins :'(

2012-01-25T21:22:00.004+08:00

I keep hearing your voice in my head, I remember the look in your face, when I last said goodbye to you. Never in my mind I knew that was your last goodbye to me. I always thought we had more time together. I knew this day would come, but how could I ever be prepared for it.

You left so sudden and so soon. I had no chance to even begin to repay what you did for me. Memories of you suddenly strike back so clearly to me. When I was younger, until now. Every year when I leave I would feel a little heavy hearted because I would look at your face and think, what if I never get to see you anymore? I guess the time really came. This may sound very inappropriate but you were always the one I love most. My heart broke when I reached the parlour. It was then that I realize you are really gone. That I will never hear your voice or see you ever again. Letting you go is probably the hardest thing to do. But I know, you have left and it’s only fair that I let you go so you could be truly rest in peace.

I stayed overnight because the time we had were too short. I had only one day to give my last respect to you. I’m sorry that that is all I could ever do for you.

Everything during the ceremony sounded so positive to all of us. You going to a new world, in a new house with servants, a car with a driver, a great new life. That’s all we tried to imply in our mind so we could go through the day and we could let you go. But the only time I truly felt that was when I saw you being placed next to grandfather. That’s when I see that you both are finally reunited with each other. That’s when I felt like you have gone to a better place. You don’t have to worry bout anything anymore.

I hope that in my next life I could have you as my grandmother again. I love you so much you may not have noticed but I really do.

RIP Ah Ma.

2012-01-01T21:34:00.003+08:00

2011 was quite a year. Actually every year is quite a year for me.

But I've learnt few things which is pretty useful to me. First things first, ups and downs, love/hate relationship with my family. I was going through a little rebellious or shall I say, I postponed my 14 years old I want freedom teenage girl issue. But then it got better.

My dad always says that if I'm in some big trouble, only my family would be the one that is able to help me. Which turns out to be true. Anyhow, I've learn the real value of family.

My best friend. The only person that I could possibly spill everything to. Such an amazing feeling to know there's a person on this earth that could understand me so well. Its definitely not just a typical friendship we have there. She's going to be there, all the time. Few great close friends, who had helped me throughout all my hard times, the ones who made me smile and laugh so hard I fell on the ground, those who always hear my out, those who share common interest, you all mean everything to me and I mean it.

College. The evil one. That tough shit. Just a shoutout to those who thinks designer is like some kinda overrated or easy job, those are meant for designers who only learn to imitate others. To constantly think of something new, fresh, something with a great concept, an idea that could probably worth billions of dollars(well okay of course that's just simply exaggerated for this sentence) or just an idea. Then the execution and the skills, so called finding your talent. This all really messed me up and often made me question myself if I'm ever going to qualify as a designer, if I'm ever going to be successful and so much more. And I tell myself, my brain has limited space, it can only go this far. An art college is nothing easy. But of course, good things come along too. Things I've learnt is what money can't buy(aside from PSD, AI and etc), friends I've made, these are the things that kept me motivated.

Relationships. Ups and downs as well. Its not easy to maintain a healthy relationship. Sometimes you can't even tell what you love about the other, but its just there. You're so attached that each time something small happens, your heart breaks. But when you're happy, its like you own the whole wide world. Give and take, is the best I've learnt from this.

People always say, follow your heart. Don't give up on your dreams. I can't imagine the amount of times I've watched or felt my dreams being crushed and rejected. Most of the time, by myself. How great. But deep down my heart, there's still a tiny part of me that still wishes that a miracle happens someday, as soon as possible. I get so jealous each time I see someone being sincerely happy with what they are doing. I wish I could be in their position. Just alter my mindset and just be happy! But nothing is easy. I should have a positive mind.

of course, not forgetting. My baby Dyno !

Geez I've typed so much. Time to go now.

2011-12-24T13:15:00.002+08:00

Don't ever push people around of throw tantrums at others when you're angry.
Its not everyone's fault that you're so angry all the time.

I dislike being the second choice in things. I am so done feeling that way.
I have always been so afraid people might think I'm selfish that I lived my life pleasing almost everyone.
Turns out, people don't see you as a priority, they take you for granted.
Sooner or later you will slowly disappear and end up as just another girl. .

I've learnt that it takes a big courage to go after what you truly desire.
And I'm going to take that big step. I'm going to put myself first.

2011-12-19T22:15:00.002+08:00

Forever is a risky word. At least to me.
I won't say nothing last forever. But its the little things that we often fail to keep up with.
And it ruins every single thing we had left.

Not specifically to anyone. Just a thought. Though I really hate the love/hate game.

I always think about the future. Then I stopped, and figured. What's the point?
I can't even handle my present. I think about ridiculous things, EVERYDAY.
I can't stop being who I would hate to be but I can't help it. That's how I feel.

The one thing I learnt this year. Never feel sorry for yourself.

2011-12-16T01:27:00.002+08:00

I turned 20 just few days back. It scares me.
I made the same wish I did every year. You may think I'm being childish or that I never grow up,
but not everyone is able to hold on to what they love even when they lost hope and no chance was given to them.

I just hope, everyday I'm a step closer.
Meanwhile, I try to focus on what's right here infront of me. Try not to disappoint anyone.
I'm still looking forward for that day. . .

Every night is a nightmare to me. Before I close my eyes to sleep, I wish I'd wake up in a total different world.
Of course, it never happens. So I'd just seize the day and try to make the best out of it.

2011-11-25T00:36:00.002+08:00

I've felt down, bad and horrible before. But nothing beats this.
Feeling like I've completely lost myself. I wanna do something really bad to myself so I can feel better bout it.
I don't care if no one cares, as long as I do. I'm tired of holding it together ALL THE TIME.
Putting on a fake smile is overrated. I don't put on a fake smile much. I know who I'm truly happy around with.
But most of the time, I just don't smile if I'm not happy. Why fake it?

Yes please, judge me. Talk about me. Insult me. Tell me every single bad thing about me.
Because I wanna get so immune to it I get numb. I don't wanna ever feel anything again..
I don't ever wanna cry so hard again.

Holding on to something you really love is probably the dumbest shit anyone could ever go through.
Because its crazy and only crazy people do so. WHY DON'T I JUST GIVE UP.
Right now I'm still crazy enough to hold on, but I know, the day I really give up,
you won't even see me anymore.

2011-11-22T17:42:00.002+08:00

I was thinking, well I always do,
Maybe I haven found what I'm really good at. Its better than to constantly picturing myself as just – average.
Everything I do, I fear there's someone who will be better than me. Which is unavoidable. There's definitely someone better than me.

The fear is killing me.

But who am I to blame anyone or anything. I don't try, I don't work hard, I prefer to just be - alright. As long as I get through each day. Confidence is my biggest weakness.

Anyways,
I had a good day today :)

Far Behind

2011-11-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

Constantly feel one step behind everyone,
as though there's no space here that fits me.
Used to blame the world and everything else,
but turns out its just me. Being me.

Want to speak. Somewhere. Where no one would judge me but just hear me out.
I'm not a hater. I just really really dislike my disability in doing things I love.
I don't hate myself. I just hate how I feel and think about things.

Call me a sadist or whatever it is. I didn't choose to be like this.

Jar of Hearts

2011-05-06T00:23:00.012+08:00

Don't know why I just suddenly felt like updating my blog x)
Last update was during CNY, what the heck.

ANYHOOS. Here I am.

Semester 5 is beginning soon. I am looking forward to it but somehow I hoped the holidays were longer D: 2 weeks is pretty short, well to me it is.
Also, I've got my results yesterday and I'm kinda satisfied with it. At least there's no mre C's this time :)) Though I may have done better. . mhmmm.

andand here I'll post up some of my work ! Heeee.

Visual Fundamental ! One of the most relaxing subject ever, also the one that I loved (:

So this is the final project, Novel Cover Illustration.
Mixed media: Colour pencil + Poster Colour (I am very traditional LOL)

CGPP Final project: Envelope Design.
Kinda enjoyed doing this, though the tracing of the doodling is a pain in the ass & the printing is super EX, but it was worth it :D

Had the best, most professional lecturer for this subject.

This is one of the assignment for Typography (Urghhhh) but I kinda like it. I think its cute x)

ANDDDDDDD THIS. Epic subject of the whole semester.
The only subject I almost cried for -.-
Typography. I could write a book on this subject, I'm not kidding.

Screw that. Lets look on the bright side :D
For Advertising Principles, we managed to work together with UNICEF with some advertisements on Children Rights and such. It was awesome. The client was friendly, open and really helpful. She even came for our presentation :) Thanks Indra ( Doubt you'll be reading this though, lol) && big ass thanks to my kick-ass groupmates, Yew Wah, Enez, Wei Li & Hui Shuang.

Oh, & I can't post up the ads here :/

So yeah, yet another great sem. More to come !

Part of the reason why college is awesome :)

Okay, enough about college.

On the other handdddddd, my dad got me a . . .

Super love it x)
andand thanks dad for it. Truly appreciate it HEEE.
Its good to feel pampered once in a while.

I'm on metals now ! x)
Just changed the colour to dark blue & loving it.

One last bit.

The one I spend more than 1k on(I never spend so much on anything else, ever) & turns out to be the reason I smile each day I get home :)

Well, this picture was taken when I first brought him home.

This was taken two days back, haha.

He is literally like a son to me & Gordong thinks I pamper him too much -.-

Maybe Gordong pampers him behind my back too x)

ohbtw, that cute little devil is Dyno. Picked by papa and mama.
And today, marks the first day of Dyno FINALLY peeing in the toilet on his own.
You have no idea how much poop and pee I've clean around the house for this little guy.

So yeah, I was so proud of him earlier. LOL.

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Yay, done. Hopefully I'll begin to update more often. Hee :D
Good Night !

Six feet under

2011-02-09T18:56:00.014+08:00

CNY lou sang with the classmates :)

The first pictures proved that we're a bunch of animals. Mostly, Yew Wah is.

My beloved grandma :))

Standing in a super awkward position cos I had no space elsewhere to stand or sit anyways :/

Brothers & cousin :))

Went to his relative's place. Feel so weird that I can't speak Hokkien.

So wad do we call Chinese who can't speak Hokkien?

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So CNY was just. SO-SO. Nothing much, no mood. Unlike previous years.

I fell for the holiday mood though. TO THE MAX. Right now, too lazy to begin my assignment, too lazy to do anything :/ Class resumes today but thankGod the lecturer is awesome so I call it the stressfree class :)

BTW, yesterday we (fluffies) did a surprise for SALINEZ. Okay fine, Celine. The cat lady with a huge appetite and fetish for Ramlis. Mainly her boyfriend the kiasu Cardin organized it.

Went to the Gardens at Sunway. Got ready all the presents and our love letters :P

AND THENNNN,

SURPRISEEEEEEE ;]

So, Eeporn here officially wish you a Happy Belated Birthday, again. Hope you enjoyed it!

Thanks for getting my baby a chance to snap some pictures, she's dusting already.

FYI, baby = dslr :)

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Right now I'm actually tracing my strawberry for CGPP label design.

can't find the perfect strawberry! Don't people take good pictures of strawberry :(

looks so fake O.O

URGH. I'm hungry :(

I know right ._.

I should probably get back to work.

Partay

2011-01-30T23:43:00.021+08:00

So I tied a bun & my hair turned out like this.

Ironically, I love it ♥

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So yesterday, no wait its already pass 12.

Saturday, went to this rawrsome condo at Mont Kiara for feimao's birthday aka WaiYong :))

All of us got excited the minute we stepped in. Oops jakun lolol

It's call I-Zen@Kiara1 btw. I memorized it on my way out ;)

ANYWAYS.

We got the fooooood

The drinksssss

The peopleeee

and of course,

Birthday boyyyyy!

Well, Happy Birthday :) && thanks for organizing it was sho fun.

Sam.

Funniest dude ever. Ever ever ever.

everyone wants to be tough like him ;)

But you see Manda's just trying to smell her armpit.

the bff ♥

The birth sistaaaa ♥

The noisy brotaaa ♥

and you ! ♥ :))

the morning after :)

Everything was so great && we all had a good time.

It was fun making fun of Sam, heeeeee x)

Ooh btw it was a pot luck. So we made tuna puff ! All thanks to my mum.

Tay made this irresistablebaconhammixedwithalltheawesomefatfood MASHED POTATOES.

Justin brought fried riceeee, Manda bought satay huhu, Suhui got the junksss & Sam bought KFC (:

SO before I end this post,

Happy cat birthday, again :)

Goodbyeee.

ROFLMAO

Time after Time

2011-01-25T11:29:00.010+08:00

THE DRAMA MOMENTS :)

The rest of the pictures are too blur :/

Anyways, this is the best subject in Sem 3. And also, the most stressful one.

Coming up with the storyline, script writing, practicing, execution, timeline. .

Ohgosh.

& that was our last play btw. Took us days to come out with a storyline, improvising it,

getting the script done in time, changing the script.

Practicing is merely the worst part. Screamed like never before. Practiced from morning till evening, neglecting other assignments.

But after the final play, it was all too good (:

Somehow, I kinda do miss drama class. Not the script writing part of course. Its kind of fun actually. Learned a lot from this class.

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We survived it though :) With a shiny A minus.

You have absolutely no idea what we had gone through just for that A minus.

Now everything is going well :) Though I do miss my fluffies a lot :'(

And also, Amanda Cheng.

Okay, time to fetch my monster from school.

Burned

2011-01-22T20:19:00.007+08:00

After weeks of Saturday classes, I actually got myself a nap after class today (:

Typo class was scary. I don't know what to say about my typeface D:

Not even capable of crapping. Next week, postcards design!

Ate pan mee again. today. Its by far the healthiest food you'd find in Bandar Sunway, I guess.

And plus its awesome. This is some bad chilli pan mee influence by Tay -.-

ANYWAYS. We also did our schedule for our project today (omg nervous) & hopefully, we'll get it done perfectly by March.

*cross fingers

Ohyeah,

finally fulfilled my cravings for this devil (:

see now I can't stop looking at the picture. great.

Obviously, these food are not enough for him -.-

Went for Ramli burger after that along with Tay and Wai Yong x)

I wanna try the Prawn one. Mhmm.

Yesterday, we marked the CGPP assignment. Exchange our works with other classmates.

One tiny mistake, minus ten marks straight ouch damn pain straight to the core of my heart.

See the Marking Scheme on the right hand side. Its either 10 or 0. Made one stupid mistake and ten marks gone for that whole section. Was probably the most nerve wrecking class of the semester so far. But anyhows, I'm still pretty satisfied with my marks :)

I'll make sure no more silly mistakes next week.

After class, went heels hunting with my mum at Empire. Bought this pumps cos my old pumps are really old and ugly.

Whee, love it x)

Was browsing through my pictures and found this,

The epic drama practice moments !

This was out last play and we were all freaking exhausted and our brains are this close to malfunctioning due to over usage.

For this specific subject. DRAMA.

& thats the drama room btw. Filled with tons of memories :)

& also our jamming spot.

Okay, out of words.

Now I'm hungry :(

2011-01-19T20:11:00.005+08:00

Hello abandoned blog.

Today, Yew Wah drove to Damansara Heights :O FYI, he only drives from his home to Sunway and nowhere else. Okay fine, Midvalley once.

ALSO, he learned how to reverse park ! But sitting next to him driving is like riding a roller coaster, exciting :D

Had the longestdragqueenclass, Visual Fundamental after that.

Drew portraits again. Reminds me of Semester 1.

Class ended late thus, jam time. Its not only that I hate jam, I hate those drivers during the jam as well. I'm on a SUPERB ANTI drivers mode now.

Just yesterday, a Camry with an ugly dude & a Bas Pekerja pissed me off like to the maximum level. Level 99

After class, went to finally print my CGPP. Now I'm assignment-free till Friday :))

Except for the print ads of course. Major stress on that !

Overall, I think this semester is kind of awesome. Loving the work (well some of it) & the people & the lecturers *rolls eye

Workload is super fine. Though some assignments really took the hell outta me.

I realized I see them fluffies way lesser :( I miss you guys.

Don't let DG Animation take you guys away :P

Okay anyways, just a short quick one.

BTW, these b/w images are so cool ♥

Bitch time.

XOX.

2010-12-31T11:44:00.007+08:00

I don't know what crossed over my mind that I decided to update my blog.

Holidays is over, class resumes next Monday :((( The ironic part is that, my class starts at 5.30pm(?!!) That is almost THE WEIRDEST TIMING EVER.

But of course, its way way better than 9am x)

I don't make new year resolutions anymore because . . its not going to happen anyways :P

SO ANYHOWS.

I went to Hong Kong :))

Wheeeeee :3

Disneyland!

Superlike the Christmas deco :)

Toy Story's sketches !

Overall it was fun but epicly tiring. I don't think I've walked this much is a long long time.

The weather is awesome! I wish we have it here too :(

Visited Shenchen && Macau. First time in a casino & its sho prettayyy.

Got my results and I've got 2 C's. AABBCC.

CGPA dropped like monkey.

Short sem with 6 subjects. Nice.

Gotta work my ass off next sem. I'm so determined I don't even believe myself.

FML for this whole results thing. Went shopping with mum the next day. HEHE.

Going to spend New Year's eve at PD with the family (:

Have a great New Year everyone ! All the best :D

XOX

2010-12-08T02:11:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday CHUNSUHUI :))

So I'll consider you elder than me by few hours therefore I am younger x)

All the best in everything you do !

LOVE YOU XOX.

2010-12-06T19:37:00.014+08:00

Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

The best kind of friend is the one yo could sit on the porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had.

Yesterday, my sister from another mother turns 19.

She is no doubt the only person who understands me the best,

who knows me well, and had my back in all these years :)

So it's true that great mind thinks alike, the birthday present we got each other LOLS.

You read my mind like nobody else ever did.

Also, you are the best personal clown EVER ;)

I hope you enjoyed your birthday this year,

even though you're 19,

don't be naughty kay :)) Love you ;)

So, we went to Frontera for dinner. The live band were awesome I love them !

Dinner was nyums and the birthday cake was. ohwait I haven tasted them yet :P

prettay ladies' ;)

I'm sorry I brought the sucky cam, the others were huge :/

Thennnnnnnnnnnnnn. We're suppose to head to Sam's birthday but it was canceled cos he had an accident :(( Poor fella.

So ended up we went to Skewers and stoned stoned stoned, drank a little, laughed, chatted, and then goodbyes :))

Thankyou guys for the dinner, drinks and presents ! LOVE YOU ALL :)

Rest of the pictures are on FB but most of them are corrupted and can't be opened :(

Have no idea why :/

Next day :)))

Shifted my whole room around. I realized my bed, table and cupboard are too huge for my room.

Gordong came over to help so thank youuuuuu :)

After that got ready and went to Neway with my family.

Early birthday celebration x)

Sang my lungs out but I also realized my voice changed and I run outta breath so easily it ain't fun at all. Also, my singing methods went like bananasflyinginthesky.

But thanks dad, mum, my brothers, cousin & Gordon for coming :))

It was awesomeeeee.

Hong Kong in two days time !

XOX.

2010-11-29T14:12:00.017+08:00

I'm getting sick of my blogskin.

Too lazy to change :O

Anyways, planned to watch Rapunzel with Ondy, Yew Wah & Wei Li today.

Plan epic failed. No movie tickets :( :( Ended up watching Skyline.

I don't even know how to rate this movie.

Alien invades, alien attacks, alien eats humans brain,

human turned to alien.

Oh & Ferrari got crashed by aliens.

AHHH I STILL WANNA WATCH RAPUNZEL SO BADLY T__T

Met Manda up for a short while after movie :)

On the way back, it was still raining & I saw this motorcyclist skidded and fell :( :(

Felt so bad for him. Its not like he was speeding or so. Mhmm :/

Luckily he didn't go to heaven *touch wood*

@ Glenmarie :) :)

Jap buffet ! OHMAISALMON <3

I wouldn't mind eating salmon everyday, given the chance. Harh.

Then, dessert at night !

Epic pose x)

ANDANDANDAND,

Yew Wah that biatch aka the best buddy in college,

bought me an early birthday gift :) :)

A Charles & Keith purse :)

Thankiu bitch !

Promise to get you something in HK nyahaha fake gucci nyehehhehehe.

Btw,

I cut, relaxed and redyed my hair.

Its violet now :) :) But its a little flat D:

& I need to play dress up a little everyday now. Mhmm.

XOX.

2010-11-19T12:21:00.006+08:00

Now, again, waking up in the afternoon.

Today, I'm going to clean up my room. A little. & then, I'm going to do something productive. Well at least I hope so.

Yesterday, stayed home till 4 ish, then went to meet Manda and Zhiji (the one who ate shit) at LST. Sat, stoned, talked a little. Hated the weather cause it made me feel like crap all the time.

Then went to Manda's. Had a long stretch of heart to heart talk :)

Now we're back on the game. ITS SO ON :D

I remember how we used to talk about it almost everyday when we were 15?

I guess none of those have actually changed, our mind's still clear of what we're going to do.

Just that right now we're already 19. :(

Lend her Dear John. Something to fill me up when I'm dead bored.

Went to star cafe, met up with Gordon. Tried to help Manda in her amazing Fashion Hotel design :) :) I made use of my sketchbook! The feeling is awesome.

The fluffies are planning a Scream Park trip. I'd go for sleepovers and movie marathons! :P

But either way, I'm always on for it :) :)

Something I did in Sem 1.

Just found this picture, sorry for the bad quality. I didn't capture it right :O

XO.

2010-11-17T21:28:00.004+08:00

Its just the beginning of sem break, I'm already feeling bored.

Anyways, watched Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows with the fluffies today (: Movie was alright, Andrea had to do so many explanations to me cause I kind of slept through the previous one. It was a bore, to me. Mhmm.

Btw, Yew Wah screamed big time, when the snake appeared. I almost drop dead laughing. LOL.

Went and meet Jing & Manda for awhile, she was sick. Bad bad timing :(

Came home and had a good sleep. Woke up, not knowing what to do. Again.

Is life going to get any better? Sigh.

Anyhows,

I need to clean up my room. Its a mess.

But somehow I like it this way, even though my parents' said they couldn't breath when they're in, mhmm what can I say. I can :D

There is a whole lot for me to plan cos if I'm keeping this "I have nothing to do" thing, I swear I'd go crazy in two days.

First things first, I have my life to catch up on. All the things I gave up before.

Wish me luck ! :)

the sister. :)

XO.

2010-11-16T17:50:00.002+08:00

My mind's twisted.
Sometimes I feel like life just isn't enough for me.
I think I want too much but thats what keeps me going. It kills me when I know, this is probably the best I can do. Or if my life just works this way, until the end of time.

You may say I'm unrealistic, immature or that I dream too much.

I hate living in this tiny box, knowing how much I want to move out of it and be better.

There is so much more in life that I want to go after, but then again. I've always wondered, are all doors close just because of who I am.

I despise the word normal. Even if its what everyone desires for, having a normal contented life.

Deep down I know that I can be so much more but yet it is me, myself who constantly throw my own faith away. I hate to wake up to reality.

I will not give up but yet I'm searching for the courage to keep me going.

I do live in my own world but there is exactly where I want to be.

Sometimes it scares me, of how well you're able to understand me.

But at the same time, I find comfort because I could tell you how I feel in words that I can barely understand but you do.

2010-11-10T23:44:00.008+08:00

Finally, an update.

Semester 3 officially ends today, with Perspective. Not really that satisfied with my final project but blaaaaah, can't do anything now already :(
I hope I have good results *cross fingers
I hate feeling like I know I could have done better. Once again, I didn't work hard enough.
But all in all, this sem was great. Feels good to finish my first 3rd sem of my college life x)

And now, I'm officially feeling so not use to no assignments. So I'm going to make my own list :) :)
I'm going to buy a canvas and start my old old long lost passion for painting.
I'm going to jam jam jam like there's no tmr. ONDYYYY (:
I'm going to go for a little shopping.
I'm going to start using my precious sketchbook!
I'm going to go for a little holiday trip.
AND MOVIES that I've missed.

For now, thats it. I guess :/

I think I've learnt a whole lot :)
Even though I've been visiting the doctor more often in these few months, turns out it was all worth it :D So mum, no worries. I'm hardcore !

And now, I'm going to watch Vampire Diaries and have a good sleep :)

I'm glad how things work out now ♥

2010-09-15T20:12:00.012+08:00

Its a holiday tmr, and since I am currently satisfied with my time management,

I decided to blog :)

Starting with Yuen Siang's birthday, organized by his sweet loving girlf Jac :)

Compared this to our older pictures and realized how much we've grown x)

Michelle and Ee Kang (:

Jing (:

Han Jun and David :)

Jessica and Jac (:

The Mr and Mrs (:

Didn't take much pictures, kinda got lazy afterwards.

Overall, great venue and nice planning :) Enjoyed much.

Did my perspective drawing at Joint and Subang Avenue x)

Took a long time to make sure my line is straight though thats not the point of it.

Plans to finish at least half of figures + visual comm assignment by tonight.

I am so so so aiming for a better cgpa this term * cross fingers

Sem 3's resolution is to

NOT PROCRASTINATE.

I think my class is alright but I miss the CD1's noise so damn much :(

Back then, even when I feel stress I have all of you to turn to and you always give me this thought like we're all in this together.

Its just plain weird that we are not in CD1 anymore.

So now I officially have to pay attention in class in case I missed any assignments,

and the fact that I understand things pretty slow.

No Andrea to tell me what to do anymore.

No Celinez to share hunger moments.

No Victorz to bully.

No Cardin to have random chat with.

No Wee to scold.

No Gracie to act all lesbian anymore.

No more sounds from Laksh.

No more classmates that are so frigging ON.

Thank God for Yew Wah that still makes me laugh and keep my spirits high high above,

and the cute Enez aka P***s to bully :) :)

I am still a happy laugh out loud human, I just have some emotional moments during classes.

I'LL LIVE :D

On the other hand, I feel the urge for shopping.

I need some new clothes and accessories.

Its getting tougher and tougher choosing what to wear every morning.

And I also need to clean my room, actually just my table.

Its killing my assignments mojo :(

YEW WAHHHHHH WHEN ARE YOU COMING.

2010-09-07T17:23:00.004+08:00

Hello peoples (:

4 days of classes a week. This is getting so so weird.

Okay so first day of sem3,

was. Late. Woke up at 930 and class starts at 930.

First class was CGD 3. Learning Indesign this time. Its sho boring :(

Ohwells, I hope it gets better as it goes on.

Then it was Figure Studies 3. I didn't finish my holiday assignment and I'm glad I didn't :P

Cos the lecturer asked us to just hand in one portrait. In your face Yew Wah x)

Anyways, we went to Genting right before sem ends. Almost the same bunch again (:

Didn't bring my camera this time, too lazy to carry it around.

So yeah, these pictures are from Cheryl's. Waiting for Ali to upload his :D

Went to the theme park twice.

Celinez and Cardin joined us on the first day :)

And we were all addicted to the Space Shot. I cannot believe myself.

Also, we actually went and look for the rooftop of the hotel.

IT WAS AWESOME :) :) Thanks Gracey. That was the best adventure from you so far :P

Reached Sunway and Manda picked me. 3 days of not seeing her, was like something is really really wrong. LOL. And now its back to normal. First thing to do when I wake up is to text her x)

Also,

I've watched ..

A disgusting movie called Piranha.

According to Yew Wah it was like watching 6 Saws in 1 :P

Okay back to Figures. I have smth to do now :) :)

Let's see how long I'll be happy about this.

2010-08-29T17:04:00.007+08:00

When we were younger, everything was way easier :)

But, no. I don't miss my childhood.

I remember how I used to cry when my brother's friends are over

and they locked me out of the room.

And I run to dadddyyyy! And my brother got scolded, nyeheh.

How annoying.

I'm blogging now while waiting for Mandas to get ready.

She went to bathe at 12.14. Now she's still, not done. Btw its 1pm already :D

I'M BORED.

Went grocery shopping yesterday.

Bought two cans of baked beans, NYUMMMM.

Touched up my figures a little.

Watched Pinocchio, halfway. My eyes were dead tired.

Okay Mandas done. I didn't know Pika needs to make up and be pretty :/

Anyways bye.

2010-08-24T00:25:00.003+08:00

you were always the best man in my life.

you try your best to give me everything I want.

thats why I'm always proud when they say

you love me more.

because I know, I love you just as much you love me.

I wish you would read this, cos you just wouldn't listen to me.

But I hope you'll know, someday

That I'm growing up and that I am also afraid if I lose the both of you.

I don't wanna be the useless one.

I don't want people saying I'm pampered.

Because trust me, you do it all the time. Sometimes I don't know if you just won't accept that I'm not that little girl anymore, or you're afraid I'll be someone else.

It hurts to hear those words you say.

It hurts when you never trusted me.

It hurts more when you doubt me.

It hurts when I've tried so hard.

I don't know if this is because I'm different from the both of them.

Or maybe you're just beginning to hate me.

All I know is that it hurts. A lot. Its been hurting for years.

And all I've been trying to do is to make you proud of me.

I know we say ugly things when we're mad, but I never did. .

You never see me, like how I thought you should have.

And all the time this always runs through my mind,

If it ever takes losing me to finally see me.

Cos thats what humans always do.

And I hope I won't have to prove it that way.

Just know that, you both will always be the best I've ever had,

I'm just sorry that I'm not.

2010-08-22T13:10:00.005+08:00

In the end of the day, its the little things that matters most :)

2010-08-21T13:50:00.011+08:00

Got a wake up call from Manda earlier x) Went mamaks with her.

2 weeks left for holidays. Maybe I should start doing my figures. .

And shall continue planning my holidays without splurging too much :x But mum and dad have been pretty supportive so thank you so so so much :D

All I need now is a good holiday and a few more new clothes :)

Maybe manicure since my nails are all still perfectly fine. Before they break again.

Found some good quotes from Wilson's wall x)

A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.

-Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding.

-Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest...it's about who came,and never left your side.

-A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument.A
real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a
fight.

-A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the smile on your face.

Anyways, The History Project people :)

Yew Wah :)

Celinez (:

Cardin (:

Andreaaaa. Our group leader (:

Han and Weng Kee x)

Parts of the project (:

I think I'm gonna miss our class more than I think I do :(

But also I can't wait to get into my major. After 1 year plus of being in foundation level.

And and and and I'm crossing my fingers for a better results this sem.

Please don't let me down T_T

Off to do some chores :)

2010-08-18T17:49:00.012+08:00

Sem 2 finally came to an end.

I'm glad foundation year is over. But I'll definitely miss my classmates :(

The beginning of Sem 1 was a little awkward for me.

I couldn't really click with you guys.

But trust me, in my mind I was thinking "Damn these people are really kiasu"

Then slowly, we got closer and closer. I swear you guys changed me a whole lot.

Of course, the positive way.

I loved the way we worked together, the time we spend in class crapping, eating, jamming and so on. The times we gossiped and bitched about our lecturers. Or when we were all struggling to finish up our assignments. The movies we watched together. And all of the breakfast and lunch we had. Every bit of those little things matters alot :)

Thanks Andrea, Yew Wah, Gracie, Celinez, Cardin, Victor, Wee, Jean and Laksh. And of course the rest of the class (excluding the fail Harry Potter, of course).

You guys really made my life in The One awesome :')

I've learned a lot from all of you people.

And the recent trip to Cameron has definitely brought us closer together and that was when I realized that parting with all of you wasn't as easy as it seems.

And I cannot believe myself tearing when we were on 3G with Celine :(

All the fun we had, the time we've spend together, it's priceless.

I wish there was more time to it and that we will still be classmates for the next two years.

I hate that this always happen in the end of both my semesters 2, separating with my classmates :(

Anyhows, I'd wish you guys all the best in your majors and everything you do in the future.

I know it isn't easy to keep in touch but I hope we will all try our very best.

Hopefully two years from now, as I read this blog post I could smile and say "yes, we did it" :)

Once again, all the best to you guys :)

WITH LOVE. MWAHS.

Hey Soul Sister ;)

2010-08-09T21:10:00.013+08:00

Today is,

Day 1 without tomyum. Yes I have been eating either tomyum fried rice, soup

or noodles for weeks. Nonstop ._.

The day Drawing test and LCS's final presentation is over ! :)

We did an Ad Campaign for Air Asia.

In three different angles but conveying the same message.

Somehow, I really love the idea.

Teehee Andrea and Celinez we are awesome group mates x)

Anyways, I'm so glad its over. Now I can sorta relax, a little.

I'm left with stop motion and history.

Had Drawing test this morning, as usual I paint like motherslow.

Finished just in time for LCS, went to class straight. Screwed 50% of the presentation,

I kept getting stuck and repeating myself. But anyhows, I hope May Ann likes it ;)

Ohh, and Yew Wah killed our mojo as well :P

After class, took our final pictures for Stop Motion. Gonna complete it tmr :)

Must complete it tmr or I won't leaveee.

Then went to meet Kai Rong for awhile crapped crapped stoned stoned then went and

buy fruits xD Melured with Manderr, as usual.

Its Augustttt.

The Monster's Birthday :)

Along with my elder bro.

Darryl's (:

Jun Beom's (:

My paper relief assignment (:

Finishing is pretty bad :/

The paper craft is a pain in the ass. The details are so frigging tiny.

But I love making the roses (:

I prefer Sem 2 over Sem 1. The projects and assignments are much more fun.

And most of em are closely related to what I enjoy doing x)

Hopefully I'll get a good CGPA and make mama proud ;)

Or else I'll hide in a hole and extinct forever :(

2010-08-06T01:17:00.004+08:00

in my little world,

I wish everyone could be a little happier

in my little world,

I hope everyone could be a little grateful

in my little world,

I hope everyone could be a little friendlier

in my little world,

I wish everyone. the best.

as we go on, we began to lose the balance in positive and negative.

we give in. just one fine morning we find ourself drowning and no one is able to save us.

how much we hate this world for being so damned unfair almost all the time.

sometimes we love being alone. most of the time we loathe the feeling that we have to stand on our own grounds.

we give up. we hope to sleep and never wake up again.

never have to face this heart-wrecking life that goes on and on.

we forgot that we lived for no one but us.

we forgot that we need to love ourself more than anything else.

we forgot that growing up is a painful act that gives you a cherry in the end of the day.

we forgot how tough we used to be.

of what makes us who we are today.

we forgot that there is someone there who needs us.

someone who cares and always try their best to pull everything together

so we could see that light that helps us through.

the one that held our hands and walked along with us.

our solution leaves a hole in their hearts.

2010-08-01T21:23:00.006+08:00

I've officially spend two weekends on my projects. I feel. . . like shit.

And today, MY SUNDAY. Well, not like I always have fantastic Sundays but at least I get to sleep a little longer than usual. But today I got up early for the stop motion project :(

Had breakfast with Mander. Then went to Grace's home sweet home. Andrea went all SO BC over her attic x) I'm afraid of heights so I couldn't bring my ass above.

We finalized everything and wanted to get it all printed today.

Went to DU, then Ikano, and then SS2.

Non of them were open, or even if they were it was like 8rm per piece. THE HELL.

So again, very very unproductive Sunday :(

Continued folding my roses in her house till Jing called.

And now I'm home, wanting to sneeze but I can't (!!!)

I googled on how to sneeze and craps came out. LOL.

I'm in dilemma whether I should sleep or continue my paper relief. . gosh this sucks. .

I believe harsh comments or opinions from lecturers are meant to be useful,

so that we'll learn from our mistakes.

Even if it was that we're stupid or useless.

But not till the point where you tell a student that he/she shouldn't even be in this line,

that they should reconsider their options. .

In the end of Sem 2? I mean what the heck you have no fucking rights for that.

Its like telling school student who can't study to just quit school.

Then what's the point of us having a lecturer if we're already so God damned smart.

I thought you were here to guide and assist us.

I despise lecturers whom misuse their authority and simply screwing students around like they're so great and almighty ._. YOU FREAK.

And its not like you're effingly hot and good looking.

Seriously, you have no rights. .

Its Monday tmr. The day I hate.

Drawing class in the morning :/

ARGH TWO MORE WEEEEKKKKKKKKKSSS, fai dit lehhhh.

2010-07-27T12:32:00.006+08:00

In class doing Functional Art now.

I'm hungry :(

3 more dreadful weeks to go.

6 more pending projects.

My brain juice are running low.

and btw.

I wanna watch Despicable Me.

and Salt.

2010-07-20T15:55:00.003+08:00

I wished you could see me the way others' did.

I would do anything for you to be proud of me.

But I'm tired of trying.

2010-07-18T13:41:00.005+08:00

Just got home from the manda-ness. Now I'm in dilemma whether should I watch Inception :'(

Inception or assignments? ._.

CRAP.

bayi °уі-νοииe says:

shit man

shud i watch

or assignment

fug

i can go now . .

Twist of Fate says:

walao

wad have u done?

bayi °уі-νοииe says:

portraits

part of my paper relief

i haven done drawings yet

:(:(

Cardin says:

GO LA

walaooo

im still at my first pportrait

bayi °уі-νοииe says:

DRAWING EYH

Twist of Fate says:

======

Cardin says:

DRAWING CAN DO AT NIGHT

bayi °уі-νοииe says:

OHYAAA HOR

eh shuddap you all

dnt tempt

Cardin says:

got chance

dont wanna take

Twist of Fate says:

LOL

-_____-

anywayssss. Some random pictures I've just found :D

Mummayy :)

My tiger :D

An old picture taken back in Taylors with both my besties :)

I have about 6 pending assignments to be done.

I wanna cry my lungs out :(

I wanna continue updating but the guilt is filling me up. ming zi . .

BYE.

2010-07-11T00:20:00.011+08:00

Picky's 20th Birthday ;)

*more on facebook

Hope you enjoyed it dear (:

And sorry bout the Chocolate cake. Blame it on Jing ! :P

Had History class this morning. God I hate Saturdays class.

Bored bored bored bored *yawns

1 more month to bear! Final projects. One word. DIE.

ECLIPSE ! Thanks Jun for bringing me :D

I really really really wanna watch it again. Just finding the right time now.

WHO'S UP FOR IT? *hint hint mandaaaa ;)

I wish life was like in the movies.

This Twilight Saga gives me crap feeling that can't be explained.

But I'm loving it :P

Had lunch with Jac today.

Went to Joint, was closed. Walked over to Biehive, closed.

Screw the weather these days. Feels like oven.

I wish I'm cold blooded and that I'll sparkle ;)

I slept in an aircond room sweating -.-

Met up with Manda and Rachel later at night.

Felt like I haven talked to the Pokemon for a long time.

And I miss the pancakes, dimsum, adventures times :(

soh poh :P

The C's :)

The bitch.

Whee he's a great help in class.

The one I'll drag out with during class for food,

and he's as lazy as I am. Maybe worst. KIDDING x)

READ IT :)

My mum rolled her eyes looking at this picture.

What the heck . . .

Mummy, you always use me to get on that little monster.

That's why he sort of likes me the least. LOL.

Hate is a strong word.

Oh, and I've came out with a MUST DO list !

MUST be punctual to class

MUST not be late

On the other hand, MUST stop snacking too :(

I'm gonna try to finish my figures tonight *cross fingers

PMS. Stomach cramps. Hungry.

2010-06-23T15:32:00.006+08:00

Yesterday I met this bitchhead lady driver in her Volvo. The word bitchhead explains it all.

I hope your car crashes but you don't have to die. You just need a frigging huge lesson.

Presentation was fineeeee. I guess I really need more preparation before hand. Impromptu is fine when I'm with few of my friends but not in a crowd. I talk crap. Mixed up crap like maggi goreng -.- But anyhows, the adverts;

Teehee the personality lollipops!

Pretty last minute, I hate choosing the fonts to suit the print ad.

I'd take a million years.

An ad for Brands.

Simple yet, conveyable (if there is such word)

I likeeeee (:

Great job Andrea and Celinezz :D

We'll do better for the series of ads!

Did this last night for CGD,

very very last minute.

Was watching The Blind Side while doing x)

And todayyyy.

Wasn't feeling too well this morning, couldn't get up of bed.

This on and off fever thingy is darn annoying. Esp when you're all MUST FINISH THIS TODAY OR DIE. Then really, DIE.

I've finally PLANNED my assignments today cos really, I was this close to bursting and breaking down. Give up and just blaaaah. Don't give a shiet, don't know don't care.

Thanks Graciee for helping out ;)

Had the smallest Indomee in my life. I think its like half a packet only -.-

I'd rather go to Joint and get a reasonable plate of rice for almost the same price.

But thinking of the food around Sunway, I feel sick. Urgh.

Everyday my life revolves around Sunway.

Okay. Time for assignments.

Just needa bare till Saturday and I'm a happy kid again.

Byeeee.

2010-06-16T16:37:00.005+08:00

Am so disappointed. Cos my Zac Efron don't look like him :'(

I put so much effort on the shading ! DAMN IT.

-Father's Day tmr! The cake I bought for my dad is still in the fridge, not even a quarter eaten :(

And I rarely buy cakes. WHAI NO APPRECIATION ! T_T

- My nails looks like the ugliest thing in this world. I think even a nail art artist would puke looking at it.

- Picky and Jac slept overnight last night. They conquered the whole bed :O Kidding.

- Mander gave me my birthday(s)(!!!!) present like finally. A FRIGGING CHU FACE PICTURE.

No wonder she's my best friend. I wonder.

- I can't wait for Eclipse !

- I have tons of assignments piling up and I am this close to giving up. Fug TOA. You caused my massive eye bags :(

- I hope May Ann will like my group's presentation. *cross fingers Andrea and Celine

- Karate Kid is a good movie (: XIAO DRE :D

- I miss these two womans

I hope Taylor's is doing you fine (:

I hope Australia is awesome for you ;)

K back to figures! I'm such a retard

xox

Far Behind

Jar of Hearts

Six feet under

Partay

Time after Time

Burned

A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.-Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding.-Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest...it's about who came,and never left your side.

-A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument.Areal friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had afight.-A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the smile on your face.

Hey Soul Sister ;)

A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.

-Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding.

-Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest...it's about who came,and never left your side.

-A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument.A
real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a
fight.

-A true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while everyone else believes the smile on your face.